trials and tribulations

the past few weeks have been one hell of a ride. After Juan's lay-off, it's been an adjustment, to say the least. He's been job hunting now for almost two months. There are a LOT of jobs out there, but no one has really given him any leads as of yet. *sigh* I am known for being an optimist, but I am being really tested. I've been working on my resume and I can't freaking get motivated enough to finish the damn thing.

I'm going to take some much needed "me time" at the end of the week. I'm going to do some meditating/vegetating/nothing/everything for me/writing/sleeping and whatever else suits me time!! It sucks a little bit coz it's supposed to rain this coming weekend and I was hoping to sit at the beach. Oh, who knows....I'm crazy enough to sit in the middle of the rain anyway. It's gonna be a little cold, but at this point, I don't care. R&R...yeah...hopefully I'll come back recharged and ready to look for another job!!

Work has been so busy. I love my job. I am damn good at my job, but the company doesn't recognize the fact that I am the only manager of the four stores that increased their sales by almost 30K instead of losing that or more. I won't be getting my much needed raise because I am being lumped in with the rest of the managers as NOT taking care of business. So...how is it exactly I'm to stay motivated? I just don't know. My boss is aware of the situation and he backs me 100%. He was pretty ticked when he found out I was being placed in the same category as the other managers. It's good to know that someone recognizes your worth. Unfortunately, he can't do anything about it, coz it's coorporates decision. Well...it'll be a loss on both sides. I love my clients. They're wonderful and the trust one builds takes a long time coming. I am sad and hopeful at the same time. I figure all the bad shit has happened already, the rest of the year has GOT to get better.

I'm off to work on my resume