simple
like a blend of tea and honey
stir me
whisk in memories
of laughter
sorrow
and light
and I'll cower
behind these eyes
and all too ready
smile
like yesterday
a dry, cold wind
of mixed emotions
molded
by the sound
of your voice
and your touch
now,
I beg you,
un-make me
with your hands
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Spoken Funk...cross post from myspace
Spoken Funk 11/26/06-with continuation
Current mood: chipper
What an ADVENTURE!! Trying to get to Miyagi's last night was insane. The Hollywood xmas parade threw the traffic on Sunset into a tizzy!! Timmi and I were worried that we'd be super late, so I called Juren and she was stuck in the same traffic! Geez. It was nuts. Not to mention neither one of us knew where the hell we were going!! We, well, I, must have made the valet in front of Miyagi's dizzy with the amount of illegal u-turns I made trying to get to the parking area. Timmi and I were rolling! It was like high school all over again! hee-hee.
We finally got to Miyagi's around 15 minutes to 7 and a few folks were already there for the promotional shoot. Music was playing and the scene was set! Lisa was wonderful. I'd almost forgotten the insanity behind the scenes, but it was exhilirating to say the least! The lights were set up and off to the red room everyone went!
The first set up was a group of folks with the wining and dining scene. Sexy-cool shots, if you ask me!! Woot! Next came all the women for a "girls night out". That was crazy! About 7 or 8 of us piled on top of or around this great red velvet couch...(hmm...reminded me of something...sorry went on a tangent!) and it was just plain funny. We had to "pretend" conversation, but, truth be told, we all hit it off wonderfully, so we really were conversing. I wish I would have had the foresite to ask for peoples numbers
The third set of shots were hilarious. It was the co-mingling of guys and girls. EVERYBODY piled onto the couch! It was a crush of people. Oh, and by the way, can I just say that those lights were blinding AND FREAKING HOT!! LOL omg...it made for so much silliness. We were all plastered to each other! Oh, the madness!
Then came the last set. Um, I did mention things being hot, right?! Yikes! This set was for the couples. (Timmi had so much fun teasing me about this one!!) I got to put my acting skills to use. The first two couples were absolutely adorable. I believe it was Shawn and Monique that got their photos taken first...so cute. They hit it off. Mm-hmm Then there was our actual couple(one of the open mic artists and her hubby). Talk about some steamy shots! THEY were a tough act to follow. omg...so Darnel, the gentleman I was paired up with for the shoot, was like, let's practice "looking into each other's eyes". I just started busting up. I couldn't look him in the eyes!! lmao. Freakin' Timmi noticed this fact and had the nerve to point out that I was BLUSHING!! ME!! I NEVER BLUSH! I said the lights were HOT!! So, our turn came next and Juren, the little minx, had me sit ON HIS LAP!! It was really hard to keep a straight face. We were supposed to make our shots look like "soap opera" scenes....um, okay! Let's just say, there should be some good shots from that one!All in all, it was hilarious and a good experience. He's a really nice guy.
More later...the evening to be continued.
continuation 11/29/06.....sorry I took so long...full day of overtime this week
Woops! I missed the bar scene...yeah we took photos there too. Those were fun. There was one set where a guy was trying to give his phone to another guys girl...mm-hmm... lol too funny! And the others were just a bunch of candid's a group of friends and the general "bar" scene.
Talk about a flurry of activity! 7:30 came and it was time for the show. Everyone grabbed their respective tables. There was no bad seat in the house. We were all STARVING and I must say the food was marvelous!! Drinks weren't bad either
Juren and Poetri are the best hosts! This show was just LIVE!! The DJ was jumpin', Poetri is a grand MC! He is amazing a so talented. I was moved in so many ways. The open mic was just so.....damn....for a writer, I'm having difficulty finding the words. I suppose I can only speak for myself. I was touched by the talent joined together in that room. I laughed, was moved to silence from the depths of my soul, tears threatened like rain at one point and then I laughed some more. In a word...inspired. Yes, I was inspired. Since that evening so many, many things have been spriraling around my head-some lyrical, others melancholy, but they are there screaming to be heard. Perhaps, I shall be brave enough to venture on that stage as a poet on the open mic... That is a challenge and a promise to myself...
Oh! I forgot to mention the games. The entire crowd gets in on the act. Hmm...they did rock, paper,scissors; the question game, a scavenger hunt and, omg...I can't remember...with cash giveaways. THAT in itself was hilarious!! Timmi joined in on the fun. hee-hee...the stage called to her!
At the end of the eve, with happy bellies and hearts contented with the art of words and laughter, it was time to head home. Juren and Poetri, along with a few stragglers were on the stage doing a few last promotional shots. Somehow, Timmi and I ended up on the stage AGAIN for more shots in front of the logo. lol...With those done, we walked off the stage, gave Poetri and Juren hugs and a final thank you along with a promise to come back again. Such kinds souls. We will definitely be going again.
Current mood: chipper
What an ADVENTURE!! Trying to get to Miyagi's last night was insane. The Hollywood xmas parade threw the traffic on Sunset into a tizzy!! Timmi and I were worried that we'd be super late, so I called Juren and she was stuck in the same traffic! Geez. It was nuts. Not to mention neither one of us knew where the hell we were going!! We, well, I, must have made the valet in front of Miyagi's dizzy with the amount of illegal u-turns I made trying to get to the parking area. Timmi and I were rolling! It was like high school all over again! hee-hee.
We finally got to Miyagi's around 15 minutes to 7 and a few folks were already there for the promotional shoot. Music was playing and the scene was set! Lisa was wonderful. I'd almost forgotten the insanity behind the scenes, but it was exhilirating to say the least! The lights were set up and off to the red room everyone went!
The first set up was a group of folks with the wining and dining scene. Sexy-cool shots, if you ask me!! Woot! Next came all the women for a "girls night out". That was crazy! About 7 or 8 of us piled on top of or around this great red velvet couch...(hmm...reminded me of something...sorry went on a tangent!) and it was just plain funny. We had to "pretend" conversation, but, truth be told, we all hit it off wonderfully, so we really were conversing. I wish I would have had the foresite to ask for peoples numbers
The third set of shots were hilarious. It was the co-mingling of guys and girls. EVERYBODY piled onto the couch! It was a crush of people. Oh, and by the way, can I just say that those lights were blinding AND FREAKING HOT!! LOL omg...it made for so much silliness. We were all plastered to each other! Oh, the madness!
Then came the last set. Um, I did mention things being hot, right?! Yikes! This set was for the couples. (Timmi had so much fun teasing me about this one!!) I got to put my acting skills to use. The first two couples were absolutely adorable. I believe it was Shawn and Monique that got their photos taken first...so cute. They hit it off. Mm-hmm Then there was our actual couple(one of the open mic artists and her hubby). Talk about some steamy shots! THEY were a tough act to follow. omg...so Darnel, the gentleman I was paired up with for the shoot, was like, let's practice "looking into each other's eyes". I just started busting up. I couldn't look him in the eyes!! lmao. Freakin' Timmi noticed this fact and had the nerve to point out that I was BLUSHING!! ME!! I NEVER BLUSH! I said the lights were HOT!! So, our turn came next and Juren, the little minx, had me sit ON HIS LAP!! It was really hard to keep a straight face. We were supposed to make our shots look like "soap opera" scenes....um, okay! Let's just say, there should be some good shots from that one!All in all, it was hilarious and a good experience. He's a really nice guy.
More later...the evening to be continued.
continuation 11/29/06.....sorry I took so long...full day of overtime this week
Woops! I missed the bar scene...yeah we took photos there too. Those were fun. There was one set where a guy was trying to give his phone to another guys girl...mm-hmm... lol too funny! And the others were just a bunch of candid's a group of friends and the general "bar" scene.
Talk about a flurry of activity! 7:30 came and it was time for the show. Everyone grabbed their respective tables. There was no bad seat in the house. We were all STARVING and I must say the food was marvelous!! Drinks weren't bad either
Juren and Poetri are the best hosts! This show was just LIVE!! The DJ was jumpin', Poetri is a grand MC! He is amazing a so talented. I was moved in so many ways. The open mic was just so.....damn....for a writer, I'm having difficulty finding the words. I suppose I can only speak for myself. I was touched by the talent joined together in that room. I laughed, was moved to silence from the depths of my soul, tears threatened like rain at one point and then I laughed some more. In a word...inspired. Yes, I was inspired. Since that evening so many, many things have been spriraling around my head-some lyrical, others melancholy, but they are there screaming to be heard. Perhaps, I shall be brave enough to venture on that stage as a poet on the open mic... That is a challenge and a promise to myself...
Oh! I forgot to mention the games. The entire crowd gets in on the act. Hmm...they did rock, paper,scissors; the question game, a scavenger hunt and, omg...I can't remember...with cash giveaways. THAT in itself was hilarious!! Timmi joined in on the fun. hee-hee...the stage called to her!
At the end of the eve, with happy bellies and hearts contented with the art of words and laughter, it was time to head home. Juren and Poetri, along with a few stragglers were on the stage doing a few last promotional shots. Somehow, Timmi and I ended up on the stage AGAIN for more shots in front of the logo. lol...With those done, we walked off the stage, gave Poetri and Juren hugs and a final thank you along with a promise to come back again. Such kinds souls. We will definitely be going again.
Monday, November 27, 2006
*wink*
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Thursday, November 23, 2006expletive
"from dictonary.com
ex?ple?tive [ek-spli-tiv] –noun 1.an interjectory word or expression, frequently profane; an exclamatory oath. 2.a syllable, word, or phrase serving to fill out. 3.Grammar. a word considered as regularly filling the syntactic position of another, as it in It is his duty to go, or there in There is nothing here. " ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sometimes, there is no other way how to fully describe how you feel without using one of these words. On this day, I am focusing on the positive and right that is in the world and I am daunted and absolutely disappointed in the negative attitudes I've seen from people who have so much to give to the world if they'd just get their heads out of their asses. This is for you... SHIT OR GET OFF THE POT. THE WORLD IS FULL OF GOOD AND RIGHT, SO GET ON THE BAND WAGON. YOUR LIFE IS SHIT BECAUSE YOU GIVE NOTHING BUT SHIT TO THE WORLD. IT'S CALLED KARMA. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND. SO QUIT FUCKIN' WHINING ABOUT HOW MUCH YOUR LIFE SUCKS AND YOU CAN'T GET A BREAK. DO THE RIGHT FUCKING THING BY EVERYONE, STARTING WITH YOURSELF, AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW. THE WORLD OWES YOU NOTHING, GOD OWES YOU NOTHING. WE ARE ALL PLACED ON THIS EARTH TO GIVE OF OURSELVES, YOU DUMB-ASS. GET A FREAKIN' CLUE THAT EVERY DAY YOU LIVE, YOU ARE GIFTED WITH TIME. THROW IT AWAY BY DOING TIME, CRIME, WRONG, PISSIN' AROUND, TAKING SHIT THAT ISN'T YOURS, MAKING PROMISES THEN BREAKING THEM, AND GUESS WHAT, YOU'RE SCREWIN' YOURSELF. AND, WHILE YOU'RE AT IT, BE THANKFUL THAT YOU HAVE SOMEONE IN YOUR LIFE WHO GIVES ENOUGH OF A FLYING FUCK TO SAY SO. IF THIS HIT ANYONE AT ALL CLOSE TO HOME, THIS IS FOR YOU. Oh, and guess, what? Even though this post sounded pissy, it has the greatest of intentions behind it. I am tested everyday, but sadly, and perhaps thankfully, it is out of the love that I hold for all that I know. There are and have been so many wrongs that have happened the past year. Let's not compile and complicate them. Let us all become the greatest warriors the world has seen. I am a carrier of light and I will bring you forward out of the darkness. Shadows only hide luminessence for a short time before it runs away to another side of the world. I am thankful for all of you and this gift. Today, the greatest expletive I have is......LOVE Wednesday, November 22, 2006Thursday, November 16, 2006Breathe/revised
When I posted the last poem I was in a rush. I had to make sure I jotted it down or else I was afraid to lose it. This version has a few changes, but it totally gives the sense of what I was trying to write in the first place. It sucks what a headache can do to your creativity. I'm just glad it's gone and the beauty of it all is that I was able to replace it with this! I'm so glad I'm writing again. I've been so stressed as of late. Lots of change afoot. Anyway, here's the revised piece...
Breathe/revised 11/16/06 tip-tap-tap-flutter-flutter my heart has wings... hold in the kiss you left me take in the hurt you kept behind seal up all the memories that blind stitch up the wound with time it's just a song it's just a song I hear Oh, God, it's so loud I've loved you for so long been so long, I can't remember but I know it happened in November tip-tap-tap-flutter-flutter it's just a song it's just a goddamn song I hear Why can't I breathe? Breathe
tip-tap-tap-flutter-flutter
my heart has wings... hold in the last kiss you left me take in the hurt that you kept behind seal up all the memories that blind me stitch up the wound with time it's just a song it's just a song I hear Oh, God, it's so damn loud I've loved you for so long been so long, I can't remember so long ago one sad September tip-tap-tap-flutter-flutter it's just a song it's just a song I hear Why can't I breathe? bleh...
bleh... "ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh I'm missin' you.. tell me where the road turns...."Diana Ross...
okay, so I never made it back the other day to finish what I was writing. Still feeling really yucky. I can't seem to shake this thing that has a hold on my throat, literally. I'm still all froggish sounding and I haven't slept soundly at all in days. Oh, I know, I'm an insomniac, but I haven't been staying up late. I've actually been sleeping, but I've been waking up several times during the night with a horrible headache or just coughing coz my throat bugs. I've been the walking dead and I still go into work feeling like this. I have no choice. I'm training two new people and it's tough. I wish I could split myself into three so I can do what regularly needs to be done as well as the training. See, if there were three of me, one could work, one could rest and the other could go on vacation. We still share the same thoughts and we could rotate! How nice would that be?! *sigh* I've been taking this long walk down memory lane and it's been such a strange and winding road. I'm browsing classmates.com right now sending messages to some long lost friends. It's weird how much time has disappeared. I don't feel 18 years older, that's for sure! So, maybe my body tells me I am, somtimes, but I'd rather be in denial! I gotta take Mikey to the DMV today for his written test. I think he'll do great. He just doesn't like to study, but when it's something he really wants, like driving, he'll make it happen. Speaking of which. I better get. He has an appointment and I don't feel so good, so I'm gonna take some meds. Catch you all later. Friday, November 03, 2006is this true? hmm...you be the judge
Thursday, November 02, 2006insomnia
can't seem to shut my eyes. my mind has been racing in about a thousand different directions and has gotten lost. i'm so freakin' tired...both physically and emotionally. i don't like rollercoaster rides. can I PLEASE get off?!! Why is it the strongest feelings of overwhelmed and depressed or sad make poetry flow? Mayhap it's the extreme emotion filtering through me at the moment? *sigh* the moon isn't even full yet and i'm already reacting. this one is pulling me in all strange kind of ways. i don't like it....i'm tired and feeling very irritable. gonna crawl under the covers now. sleep...blanket me with rest, please.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006Within
She's been calling again-the moon
and I cannot hide for every time I close my eyes I see her She laughs at my aversion knowing fully what lies in my mind and in my heart In the midst of dreams she's watching as the clocks tune turning circles in my head you were in my bed my hands are clenched holding onto...what? But, only she knows what dreams are trapped within my pillow
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